Oct 15, 2008

Once … And Now!!!

It is interesting to recollect how my life’s seasons turned me around. This day if I stay calm and look around the clock of my years, I find a fair reel of transition. Though I didn’t remember some of those incidents, but I definitely remember how they made me feel. What once I was aiming at and what now? What once I was crazy about, and what now? … Likewise there are enumerable issues, which I’m addressing here. I repeat, ‘its all about me and only me’. It’s not only about my emotional metamorphosis, but also about my upgraded rituals.

* I remember the days when I used to go to the ‘ice cream babu’ and picking up the ‘cone ice cream’ and eating it slowly, so that I enjoy the thrill as longer as I could. And now I’ve stopped taking ice creams whatever the reason it is. (Of course, some how my health is not supporting me to it eat now :))

* I used to go to movies with friends on the very next day of their release as we used to have college till 1.00 pm only. (That’s alone been not the way, we used to bunk classes too… :)). And now … ‘Are Yar…I’m not at all getting interest to rush to a theater…please tell me how I can do it again’

* I still remember the moments when all others around me were wondering at me ‘Why she is crying for this??’ … I’ve always been a sensitive person till my +2 days. Sensitiveness was really at its peak…I used to get tears for most of the problems I’d faced even though they were veryyyy simple … if I think about them now, I laugh at myself and tease myself. And now though I don’t like crying…but still I cry few times and I cry before the people I love…(But still I’m sensitive and I like that sensitiveness in people around me. I generally don’t tease sensitive people, Cause I know the effect of it!!).

* In the earlier days of my hostel life whenever I start to hostel I always wanted to hug my mom and to cry, though I never did. And now after 9 years of my hostel life, as it became practice I take it easy as I can’t avoid and I want to hug my mom and say ‘Miss You’ and ‘take care’, though I don’t do it even now:):).

* In my past I used stay like a detached observer at most of the debates among people (frns/elders (whom I know) /children/other people). Now, I can’t stay back in debates among my friends and among elders whom I know. I convey my view to the group and perhaps take a side. Still I don’t interfere in discussions among children (As they have the most sensitive hearts in the world and I don’t feel I’ve any skill in solving their problem by not humiliating any of them, In future I’ll adopt that as I should!!). And I stay still detached in debates among the ‘other people’ (whom I don’t know).

* I used to take people for granted, who talks to me nicely, and who stays with me always. In my far past I never tried to show difference in behaving with people, though I know some people were good and some were bad as I concluded them according to the situation and according to the way I saw. But now, I show a clear difference in treating every one, as I feel every individual is unique and special too. I’ve my own way of behaving with everyone directly and indirectly.

* In my far past I wanted to be a good girl for all. Now I want to be good to myself and true to myself. Now I don’t mind to be myself in most of the situations and I never miss my own self just because some one thinks badly about me. (Of course it is not very possible always, it do hurts some times but I’m not talking about the extreme conditions!!).

* Exam preparation… It’s the craziest issue I feel… I never did a single ‘one day batting’ till my M.Tech 1st year. I learned it or got addicted to it during those days and it had stupendous effect on my performance in my first semester. Straight away I came back to my actual way of preparation for the exams :):).

* Once I never liked giving pose to a photo. And today I go crazy for that. I never liked wearing good dresses or getting ready neatly, but now I do consider it. I never shared my personals with any one, but now I do share with those who deserve. And many more…………………

These are few things I could publish in my blog, but still the list is not yet completed. Far more issues are to be included, but for the time being I’m keeping them aside. These are all those issues where I had a thirst to change myself and changed my self accordingly (And also with time/life lessons/consequences). There are some more matters in which I need to upgrade my level of thinking.

** I feel very much tensed for very small issues those matter really less and I stay cool for such issues which matter the most. Basically when I fear about some issue, I fail to accept a small issue as small. I feel it is most important, can’t easily unravel. But I’m moderately happy while I deal very though things and will stay quite balanced too.

** I take out positive from the happened events and I also want to think positively about the events that are to be occurred.

** I want to accept people as they are than just expecting more from them.

Chalo… bahut hogayaa… haa yaa … I want to learn ‘Hindi’ also… :)!!

Ok … and that’s it from my end. I welcome your opinions about your way of changing your life style. Please take a chance and consider it as my personal request and do put it in comments.

Thank you. Am signing off here… Have nice time.

Dare To Be What You Are. Care To Retain What You Deserve

7 comments:

Vyshu said...

Hi Prams..

Nice Post ..

It is always great to try smthg
new, something to improve our life, to rejuvenate our health.
Your promises are very good. Do step by step what you like and what you want to achieve.

You are strong, you can everything!

I should probably sit down and make a list of all changes..


Here is a list of what I think got upgraded/Changed/degraded....

***Stated cooking ..and became foodie.....:)

***Stopped eating chacolates..(not becoz of diet control ..its that am bored of thm )

***Addicted to icecreams n Non-Veg

*** And became very choosy interms of clothes/food/books/websites/.
Movies

***started living and enjoying individual life ..

*** accentuated on my Listening Skills

*** Less sleeping hours..

*** No more whinging about useless crap, no more listening to liars, no more throttling expectations from anyone

*** Balancing priorities .........

*** Late snacking..

***Improved alot in my working style..multitasking/fast processing...hehehe

***Became very time-consciouns....
counting time ...!!..as am running shrt of it......

***Using TATA Salt instead of Annapurna Salt.....do u thnk its a PJ ?..nope..No where i cn find Annapurna these days....so shfted to it.....

i wud say .....
Life is like property ..

From time to time, you can choose to upgrade, renovate, repair these properties as and when required. The same applies to relationships and people. We all need fixing, repairing, changing, freshning up...all for the sake of moving on in life in good spirits and with a fresh mind...

cheers,

Soppi

dilmainhainpyar said...

hey sis
something different from someone special...hmmm...!!!! but a good one.
i do remember how ur attitude changed towards ur life and the others u meet.

u never used to talk to anyone (nor with the family members...)but now u speak to every one u meet.

u always used to be sensitive and u said u no longer cry now...but u do it di.... i still remember u and mamma crying the railway station hiding from each other when u left to Pune.

anyways.....every one of the Meduri's will definitely accept that Pramoda is changed.... and u r the best always...

***its my time now***

i wanted to be a doctor always and now i am an engineer and like it as well.

i used to cry for simple reasons and now i dont get tears even for some reasons that i had to cry.

our family was everything for me and for a very long time and now...u know na... its ma gang with whom i like to spend time. i rarely speak to my'self'

i used to think abt nothing in the world and now i mind about everything. be it the politics.... be it the nature.... be it the anything... i thin about everything

i was feared to speak to someone whom i dont know but now i speak to many people in the world and in a very convincing manner.

i had some dreams and now i am on my way in achieving them.

i dont know about what changed e but i can say i am changed.... everything has changed in ma life....

i think someone like you can better say about how my life is now and how was it yesterday......

but still i love it yaar...!!!

with love
ur sis
yamini meduri

Pramoda Meduri said...

@ Vyshu

Hi soppi...

Thanks for sharing urs... :) I do consider ur advice.

***Stated cooking ..and became foodie.....:)
***less sleeping hrs...
***Improved alot in my working style..multitasking/fast processing...hehehe

These are the few things whr i can give a 'naughty look' if i recollect our Btech days. Its my pleasure to know hw my 'Roomy" changed... heheh :)

Good gng...

And haa... I agree with u ...ITs all abt leading life 'IN SPIRIT'

Urs
Prams

Pramoda Meduri said...

@ Yamini

Hi dear... Thanks fr urs.

**u never used to talk to anyone (nor with the family members...)but now u speak to every one u meet.

Hey... a spl thanks fr this...:)and yar...I didnt say 'no longer crying', bt I mention I cry before the people I love". Thats y I cried before u and mamma... :)

**i used to think abt nothing in the world and now i mind about everything. be it the politics.... be it the nature.... be it the anything... i thin about everything

It's a A perfect change I can say re. And the way u ppl running AKANKSHA is admirable.

and many more to say abt u... nt now, probably I take a chance and let u knw latr ra...

And ...
**i rarely speak to my'self'

yamini... have a relook at this line and let me know what u feel, actually I didnt get when u said that...

k, say Hi to ur gang...

with love
Prams

yamini meduri said...

HEY DI

nothing much with that line yaar.... times before i used to talk to my self every now and then...but these days i rarely do that...i think i miss the true self of mine.... but still i know i have people around me who care and love me so much that i dont wish to think abt my "self" anymore.....

anyways we are all happy and that is wat is needed

The Idle Brain said...

In some issues we are alike.. !!
Somehow I never really felt that way when we were together.. :(
Life taught me things too.. Nice to see some of those lessons posted here... :)
Have a great future...!
Still waiting to see your book :p

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