Nov 1, 2009

Silence... of loss/gain?

“Isn’t that hurt me now?” she took a deep breath before keeping herself in a minute of deafening silence. The auditorium was stared at her downcast body and was expecting her lost soul to speak her heart. He stood there and could feel her feelings.

She started saying slowly- “I was five years old when the very first dream had disturbed my calm soul. Since then, I have been trying my heart out to conquer this moment. I have too many titles on my name since schooling. My parents had always been there behind my all those achievements. But I only know exactly why this particular stage is making me emotional. Here I’m standing right before all of you, being the cynosure, I must stress that this moment is written on my name”

“Why should I miss my parents now?”
“Why I can never tell them that their daughter has done this much”
“Why should I have lost them?”
“Now, isn’t that hurt me?” No one had any clue, including him.

Though she didn’t spell out, her heart asked her something in extra – “Had mom and dad been there, would it have ever happened?” She got surprised on her thought, but she knew that it would have never happened had they been alive.

***
She was the only child for her parents. They both were job holders. They departed from their family many years ago on the name of a love marriage. Her father was very strict at discipline. He used to restrict her to keep her concentration only on studies. Many times she did put her interest in singing before them, but they always insisted her to leave it and they always managed her to concentrate on studies.

Being an intelligent girl by birth, she could do well at her studies. She was a kind of girl who never dared or wanted to go against her parents’ wish. She was many times scolded by her parents for expressing her liking towards singing, and even severely punished by them at times. She was the topper of her class since childhood. She had very less friends, and she had to keep herself in a circle so that she would do well in studies.

A minute is more than enough to change anyone’s life. In line with this, one day she got a call from a hospital saying that her parents met with an accident and were in their last minutes. Though she tried a lot to reach them on time, she was just few seconds short. They died. She was left in deep silence.

Her uncle brought her to his home. He introduced her to his son. His son was just a year elder to her.

“Stay with her, console her and try to make her normal. You better keep your other work aside and try to bring some smiles in her life” he suggested his son.
“Yes dad”

Initially he did not like the whole process of consoling her. But day by day, after seeing her heart, he started liking her slowly. He was a cool guy with an adorable character.

One day, he took her to his college. He introduced her to his friends. They were all cool and energetic young guys and girls. Just at that moment, they were all busy in the preparations for a cultural competition. In between their practice session, she was asked by one of them to sing a song. Though she was not it any mood to do so, on his request she walked on to the stage.

The music brought out a special energy in her. She kept herself involved in the song to the core. He could observe an unseen happiness in her while singing. At the same time, he understood the singing talent in her.

Everyone clapped for that song, and now the same claps had brought her here on to this stage. The same claps helped her in finding a new self in her own. The same claps made her more focused on her goal. And now, the same claps had provoked her to win this prestigious singing competition. He assisted her right since the beginning. His love for her had been growing within. Now, he was the happiest person to see her tears of joy and satisfaction.

She loved him for his encouragement, for his assistance, for his confidence in her, and for his love towards her nature. As she proudly lifted the winner’s trophy, cameras clicked at her, people smiled at her and love was poured at her from all possible corners. She was a role model for many. He was everything for her now. They were the joy for their friends.

“Why I can never tell them that their daughter has done this much”

“Why should I have lost them?”

“Now, isn’t that hurt me?”

“Had mom and dad been there, would it have ever happened?”

“Had mom and dad been there, would it have ever happened?”

Questions haunted her.

And now they haunt me as well…what about you?

I believe people say that everything happens for a reason. Everything happens for some good time. According to you, what is the good that had happened in her life?

Stand and walk in her shoes. Please do let me know your feelings. Thank You.

38 comments:

Escapist said...

Hiya !
That's too beautiful..i was too much into your blog while going through.....perfect....
Silence.......if i say ,it speaks.......



Jollieess:-)

P.S:- Beautiful time comes for every one :-)

Anonymous said...

Hey,

Just came across your blog.

I didn't quite understand at your following lines:

“Had mom and dad been there, would it have ever happened?”
I believe people say that everything happens for a reason. Everything happens for some good time."

Can you make it clear? Are you linking those two lines?? That would be wierd.

I don't think any one can ever be so positive in their life!

Mads... said...

vry nice read...yes, everything happens for a reason nly, she was able to achieve love n fame, dat was what she longed for, so shuld b taken in positive way, though losing parental touch will always haunt her..so, it can be a silence of loss as well as gain..bt yes as always said silence speaks louder than words..!!!

Ekam said...

Losing her parents was definitely not the good which happened in her life but her meeting with him , with his uncle was . The way he understood her , her silence was the good that happened with her. Its very true there are very few people in our lives who can understand our's silence and he understood her, that was the good that happened to her:)

A very beautiful post Pramoda :)

Yellow Tulip said...

i second Ekam....lovely write..:)..
there's a say watch out before wishing for somethin it might come true...when her parents were there she always wanted to sing... n so did she get tat wish only at the cost of most precious thing in her life... tats life i guess...cant have all in one...

Creativity!! said...

Prams :- Parents Were Worried & Were Only Interested In Her Career Rather Than Her Interest :) :) Eventhough she was gud at studies, parents would ve encouraged her, but they didn't.

After She lost her parents, that boy took an initiative to bring back her happiness & her life in Music as well as career :) :) its a very inspiring motivational post Dear :) :)

Jaunty anima said...

Quite paradoxical!!!But taking the bright side of it...every cloud has a silver lining..she lost her parents...her life must have seemed gloomy..may be more than that...But she was destined to become a singer n none could become a stumbling block in her path...

WELCOME TO MY WORLD OF POETRY: said...

Wonderful blog, very absorbing to read. as the saying goes "Silence is golden"

Yvonne.

Raksha Raman said...

Reaching the destiny is not the ultimate experience in life but the journey to get there surely is! There are all kinds of hurdles and roadblocks. The fact that this girl did not let her parents death ruin her dream shows that she is a winner! Its the attitude that matters!

Dhiman said...

Losing her parents was ofcourse a big loss and missing them at a moment of triumph is quite natural.... as far as whether it was Good for her or not is something very difficult to answer ... coz I believe if you have dream and want something dearly it comes to you call it the "Law of attraction" or whatever.... She met people who spotted her talent after her parents death can be mere coincidence ... If she had to be what she is now She would have become even if her parents were alive you never know..... but yes she had to pay a 'big' price for what she wanted ..... sometimes you don't know what lies in store for you....maybe thats what people call destiny or Almighty's Wish call it what you may ....

Readers Dais said...

Hi Pramoda!
Nicely woven lines and breaks.
Now the claps are for you pramoda,for keeping the readers glued to your posts.

Ellen said...

Hi Pram,

The answer to your question -- what is the good that had happened in her life? -- is right there in your post. The loss of her parents brought her to her uncle's house and the meeting with his son. One thing led to another, a series of events in her life i.e. meeting new friends, finding her true love, and unveiled her talent for singing. If you ask me, I think that's a lot of positive good happening in her life. People are right in saying that 'everything happens for a reason' -- this reason as designed by God is meant to bless, is intended for some good, and definitely not meant to hurt or harm.

Wonderful piece, Pram.
Blessings to you n your loved ones.

anupama said...

Dear Prams,
Good Evening!
If she had to become a singer,she would even after her college!no parents will object to cultural progress if they don't ignore studies!:)there is no age limit to be a successful singer!our parents are our GOD on earth!
in this fast paced life,when you face cut throat competition,a job is a must!
have a great week ahead,
sasneham,
anu

Being Pramoda... said...

@ Escapist...

hey..thank youu soo much ..:) welcome back here...hope to see u around..yaa best times

Being Pramoda... said...

Cont...

best and beautiful times come for every one..:)

Being Pramoda... said...

@ Anonymous

hey ..welcome here..:)

**“Had mom and dad been there, would it have ever happened?”
I believe people say that everything happens for a reason. Everything happens for some good time."

there is one more line between these twoo ..

i was narrating the story being a third person, and the line is said in first person...

i.e.
** And now they haunt me as well…what about you?

so..i was asking the qsn..she is not the one who said the last lines.. it is me .. so thats it..

Thank youu ..

Being Pramoda... said...

hai madhu..

**she was able to achieve love n fame, dat was what she longed for, so shuld b taken in positive way, though losing parental touch will always haunt her..

soo well said dear..:) Thank You...

Being Pramoda... said...

hi ekam,

Thanks alott dear ..

**Its very true there are very few people in our lives who can understand our's silence and he understood her, that was the good that happened to her:)

yeah..soo true ekam..we met such souls in life..:)

Thank You ...

Being Pramoda... said...

hi nanditha,

**tats life i guess...cant have all in one...

haaaan..inspiring line..:) Thank youu so much ..:)

Being Pramoda... said...

hi sahana,

thank yuu soo much ...:) yeah he had understood her and helped her..

:) ..:)

Being Pramoda... said...

hi jaunty,,

yeah..no one could be the block on her way..:) ..she was luckyy may be ..

Being Pramoda... said...

hi Yvonne,

golden comment tooo..:) Thank Youu soo much ..:)

Being Pramoda... said...

hi raksha,

welcome here...:)

**The fact that this girl did not let her parents death ruin her dream shows that she is a winner! Its the attitude that matters!

lovelyyy..she is a winner..:) Thank you soo much ..plz keep coming here..

Being Pramoda... said...

HI Dhiman,

**She met people who spotted her talent after her parents death can be mere coincidence ...

yeah..that was her plus and she was destined to be with him..:) at least i feel it ..

I was so happy while reading ur comment..:) ... Thank yuu soo much ..

Being Pramoda... said...

hi RD,

Thank Youu so much for ur lovelyy comment..:) Thanks alott.

Being Pramoda... said...

hi ellen,

its wonderful reding u..

yeah ..lot of good happened in her life..despite the loss, the way she had come back was inspiring ..:)

Thanks alott ellen..have a nice day..

Being Pramoda... said...

hi anu,

in her case, she was completely restricted by themm..:)

any ways ..life is what we make..let us live..

Thank youu..

Priya Joyce said...

I dunno what good happened in her life...may be ter's yet tym to realize wat for the tragedy happened for wat gud...

but shud tell u one thng..i needed this post n thanx for this :)
hugs

Being Pramoda... said...

Hi Priya,

well said..she need to understand that..

am glad that i could contribute for u ..its a true pleasure..:)

Thank You..

Being Pramoda... said...

and yeah...HUGS to u tooo..sweet gall..:)

Amity Me said...

seems quite related to that prompt at OSI Shift in Time...:)

our minds are flooded with questions, "if" and only "if"...

but I believe that everything happens for a reason, and that's up to us to find out and realize...

fiction or not, this story of yours has so much to impart to readers!

nice read Prams and the morals, too!!!

Being Pramoda... said...

hi Amity,

thats a big complement fr me ..:) Thank Youu soo much ..:)

its just a fiction..but i dont know if somewhere it is hapened in the world..yaa that holds good for every fiction wrk of course..

Thank youuu

Bobby said...

You simply made my eyes blurred with tears! Gosh!
Yea at times parents too do commit mistakes that really f*ck up their chilrens' lives....

Being Pramoda... said...

hi Bobby,

yeah..at times, they do comit mistakes..:(..some children may suffer, some may oppose ...but in both cases the culprits are same..:)

Thanks for being here..:)

yamini meduri said...

hi di

it was really a very touching story...nicely written...good work di..!!

abt the question, i am not able to conclude on anything...!!!

as an individual, it was important to her to achieve her dream and live with passion. but i cannot say that, for this it is ok if she lost her parents. May be one day, she could have convinced her parents to be a singer and achieve it.

Yes, today she is successful but when she for the first experienced the tears of happiness her eyes and her heart were searching for those people who stopped for the same success to come in her way...!!

here Good was that she won her dream....she is now living with the passion of her life...!!!

but it would have been the best, if her parents were there..!!!

Being Pramoda... said...

HI Yamini,

lovelyyy words and thank you..u have addd beauty to my post with ur hearty comment..

i agree with u ..:) Thanks sis..

Leo said...

Everything happens for a reason.. Yes Prams, maybe if her parents were around also,

she might have realized her singing talent.. because no parents would ignore their

child's talent... Every parent has a dream for their child, and sometimes, they

inadvertently try to impose those dreams on them forgetting that they have other

talents too. The future for her might have turned out the same, with her meeting her

cousin and realizing it. But it didn't. Her parents died, and she had to realize it with a

loss.. but I feel her parents would be there in heaven, looking down upon her and very

proud of what she accomplished!

Being Pramoda... said...

hi vinay,

Grt comment indeed..Delay is forgiven..hehe..

Thank you soo much for the supportive words..:) yeah parents sometimes do try to keep children in loop, but they must be given their space..

have nice time..