The ‘Corporate’ feeling…

The best feeling:

“This is work is given to me, because no one else can do it”

The worst feeling:

“This work is given to me, because no one else will do it”

Shed smiles anyway… Take Home #39

A smile given away as a formality may solve the problem for the moment; but the smile given away with genuineness solves the problem forever. Face problems with the confidence that you can shed smiles anyway.

The President’s Address…

“Every day people work hard and spend money for their needs, cutting excess expenses wherever possible. Hence, they deserve a government which does the same. We much freeze on the Annual Domestic expenses for next five years. We must cut the excessive expenses wherever possible.

Instead of cutting off the scholarships for the students, we shall ask the Millionaires to give up tax breaks. It is not about punishing their success, but it is all about developing our country”

I might not have put it in the same words from him, but I tried my best to put these lines here. These are said by the man know for his speeches, The President of the United States of America, Barack Obama. He is one of my favorite speakers of all the time. He was applauded by the entire US state of the Union with his words.

“Be it the white, be it the black, Hindus, Christians, Muslims, whoever it may be, let us move forward as one nation”

It is he, being the president, I’ve ever heard mentioning the efforts of a company of his country and it’s employees who worked round the clock to make a rescue equipment for the mine victims.

All in all, for me, the 61st Republic Day of India is started with witnessing one of my favorite speakers’ inspiring addresses to his nation and the world, live telecasted in BBC from the USA. I’m really overwhelmed by the way his fellow Union people gave the standing ovations many times, backing him from the front all the time.

It has been a good experience for me in this morning to start the day. Thanks to BBC and Obama.

Battling the uncertainty…

Interesting crickets match is on… India is batting second… huge target to reach… well going innings… super shots from the Indian openers… flamboyant first few overs… suddenly, Sachin is out… audience dumbfounded… few more batsmen reach the pavilion… hopelessness all of a sudden… audience leave the stadium… people switch off the TVs… players undergo the edge of curses… a few believe in not watching the match any more…but the players have to complete the formalities… they have to play the game… they have to witness the loss till the last ball is played, does not matter how much it pains… sometimes, the game may turn around to their surprise… they may emerge as winners and hit the headlines next day… smiles in their way…

The above sequence of incidents is the best example that hits my mind to start with this post. Uncertainty lies everywhere, in every profession, in every game as long as the fight for the win happens. Sometimes, like the situations mentioned above, we forget the fact that the uncertainty can play it’s role. We go ahead in believing what our mind says at that point of time. Not only that, the disappointment emerges out of the hope that we have on our team makes us behave so. It happens with everyone, nothing surprising. Being the audience, it is one’s own choice to witness or not. All in all, players are known for battling the uncertainty. They have to go through it, does not matter how disheartening or boring the defeat is or the match is. They have absolutely got no option other than facing the truth. Every time I switch off the TV in the situations mentioned above, these lines hit my mind. And this thinking of mine makes me respect the team and it’s efforts despite of their defeat. If they win out of such critical circumstances, I feel too sad for myself for not witnessing the match.

Any ways, one has to agree that battling the uncertainty calls for the confidence, strength of one’s mind and the aim to win. I wish all these help Team India win the upcoming world cup which is going to happen on their home soil surrounded by the cheers from the home crowd.

A Mother’s Last Wish…

A girl is seen distributing sweets which she has made herself. Her friends and neighbors are gathered over there on another occasion actually. The girl is in full of smiles while approaching each and every one in person and letting them taste the sweet. Her whopping excitement is the talk of the gathering. None of them knows why she has been distributing sweets. None of them is answered by her for their only question “what’s the matter?”

She simply giggles and says that she will tell once she sees everyone with a sweet in their hands. People wait like none to know the matter as if it is the only thing that they don’t know about under the sun.

Finally, the moment comes where she has to reveal the assured. She becomes stable, controls her breath, adjusts her sour throat and says “This was the day last year I lost the person who loved me like none”.

She wipes the rolling tears and clarifies “My mother passed away that night”.

Her words see everyone dumbfounded. Not even a single person among them understood why she was happily distributing the sweets till then and was in tears all of a sudden. Also, they could not understand why she was actually happy while distributing the sweets. None of them could spell a word out for a moment.

Finally an old man comes to her and asks “I can understand the agony but why are celebrating the day like this?”

“What was there on your mind when you were in smiles a moment before?” he continues.

The girl wipes all of her tears away, comes back with her beautiful smile all again to hide the agony in her best way.
She says “I only had my mother in this world to love me, to care for me. We didn’t have any relatives. We were all alone walking past the innumerable hurdles of our lives. One night all of a sudden my mother fell off from the bed with deep pain in her chest. I reached her quickly but never on time” her sour throat appears further decayed.

“I lost her already by then. Then I saw her hand directed towards a book on the side of her bed. It took me long time to realize that she was actually fallen down since she was trying to reach the book in her last minutes”

Everyone out there is seen interested to know what was written in the book. The girl broke down for few seconds all over again. She was consoled by her friends. Finally she made herself ready to reveal the pages of the book.

*****
“My dearest daughter…

I know I’ve left you in lot of pain and loneliness. But I was helpless dear. I could not do anything to make it not to happen this way. I hope you understand me.

I’ve been suffering from a heart disease which I didn’t tell you. Seeing the poverty that we are in as on today, I’m not very convenient to struggle you even more for my treatment. Instead, since some time, I’ve started making up your mind to face the odds. If you can recollect some situations happened recently, and the conversation I’ve had with you, you will get my point.

I’m leaving with a satisfaction that I’ve made you as a person who is sensitive towards the needy, who wants to help the poor children for their education. I’m sure you are a kind of a person who does something to keep the pain away from such people. I want you to grow in life with time and age. I want you to keep your smile which can light many lives. I will always be proud of you if you become successful not just for yourself, but also for all the people who are in lack of love and affection, especially the children who are poor and lack of education. As you read this you have to promise me and yourself that you will achieve your dreams with all the possible efforts.

Dear, I’ve a small wish; probably my last wish too. On every death anniversary of mine, you prepare some sweet with your own hands and share it with the people around you, friends etc. Never feel that you are alone in this world. This is world is of them who loves. Love people, have friends and achieve your goals. This wish may appear strange but I know how this small deed will help you in being confident and not feeling the loneliness.

Every time you give the sweet, every smile you give to the person who receives strengthens your attitude that you are surrounded by the love. It reconfirms you the joyful world that you have around you. I know you can understand the rest.
You are my lovely baby. I still remember your first steps and first words. I can still feel the first touch that I had while rubbing your palms gently. Any way, we have to depart one day and the day has come today. I hope you will live your best.

Take care of yourself. Bye dear.

Ever yours
Mom”

*****

“The note ended with my mother’s signature. That is the only thing which brings my mother close to me every night. Every time I touch it, or read it, I feel I’m talking to her.

Start if off…

None of us want to let our dreams just remain as dreams. It may not always be so possible to turn all of our dreams in to reality; but the very first step that we take to make them true or the move that we make to let our ideas pop in, is very important and the moment to be cherished. Of course, they say, starting it off itself is half way through the success, may not always be interpreted as half-done though!

So, come on; start it off; be successful and satisfied too.

Added responsibilities…

People feel excited about the added responsibilities in professional life and feel over loaded about the added responsibilities in personal life.

PS: Well, the above line did hit my mind yesterday. I’m not sure why, but I was quite confidence while penning down those lines.

To be a better performer… Take Home #38

It is very useful for every one of us to know the importance of the work that we are doing. May be, it is even more important to realize it’s significance to be a believer and hence to be a better performer.

IPL-4 Auction…all about Indians…

It is interesting and even more surprising to see the way the franchises’ have capped the cricketers, especially the Indian players for the entire amount that they can afford paying. All the looks were kept astonishingly on the young India. It is sufficiently evident that within no time Indian extravaganza can influence the equations of world’s cricket; I really don’t know how good it is.

Nothing more is expected than a price of $2.4 million for the in-form Gautam Gambhir. I still remember the Yusuf Pathan’s energetic performance against the then most adoring spinner Ajanta Mendis of KKR, during the only super-over of the season-2; and no doubt he was eyed high by the KKR this time. No doubt that the loss of Muralitharan affects the Super Kings; where as the spinner duo of Chargers, Ojha and Amit Misra, shall have to prove their best. May be, Yuvi has been hiding his game since last season of IPL, only to play his best for the Pune Warriors!

Oops… I realize that it is very difficult to describe or pen down all of my opinions about the auction-2011. Now, I’ll start doing it on fast track.

The less-paid (comparatively) talented foreigners will undoubtedly be envy of their team mates unless they wouldn’t mind much about their payment. After all, who does not mind when the players are being sold like papads, unveiling the same on LIVE for the entire world to see! One more point I would like to mention that some of the players who are surprisingly sold for more are lucky enough to have the franchises who wanted them.

Sourav Ganguly, the omission of the former Indian captain was the stunning stunt of the day performed by the owners. The way he remain unsold remembers me his omission from the Team India couple of years back before he retired. The entire Kolkata was on fire backing their sporting hero. Any way, I believe Ganguly will fight it out alone; he is well capable of doing it so. He is one of very few gutsy players I’ve ever seen. I wondered when the West-Indian Brian Lara announced his availability for the IPL; I went a step ahead and thought if any franchise would be interested in taking him in, which came true coincidentally the other day.

I know, I didn’t mention about the teams I support as yet. And I’m sure that I don’t want to choose the same now. I wish to keep my focus on the upcoming cricket festival of the year, the ICC world cup. Let us see what will turn around!

On the whole, it is a good sign to the Indian cricket and so as the same to the world cricket as well.

Crazy dreams…

Crazy dreams may not last long;
But they make us think aloud.

May be, we overlook them at times,
But they do not let us do so, so easily.

Craziness is all about what we perceive;
And of course, what we are, actually.

Does it sound logical?

Sometimes we say it because we like others saying such; and sometimes we don’t say it because we don’t like others saying such.

Or rather,

Sometimes we like others saying it because we like ourselves saying such; and we don’t like others saying it because we don’t like ourselves saying such.

PS:

I know, I’m late. My best wishes for all of you on the eve of the new kitty of hopes, the New Year.

Smile, serve and survive.

Memories of “The New Year”…

New Year used to get new welcome each decade. Now-a-days, the gap has been narrowed down to three or to be true one. Year after the year we have been changing the way we celebrate it. Not completely that the thought-process of the people has been changing from year to year, but the change that we want to implement in the way we celebrate it makes the real difference and the advancement year by year.

Some of such observations from my memories are listed down here just for you. Read on.

The joy that a greeting card brings…

As we exchanged the cards
With those little hands,
Hearts used to be full
With all our faces joyful.

Memories of the childhood friends
Make me want to meet them again,
To tell them all those unsaid;
To wish them to get all they deserve.
For me, the greeting cards mania was there till I was in my intermediate studies. As I used to stay in hostel and was away from home, I used to buy a very nice greeting card form my parents and grand parents at home. I guess that was the last time I sent a card home on the eve of New Year. Last time when I went home I opened my mother’s wardrobe and was surprised to see all those cards from me and from some of her students that she had been preserving in it. It made me feel nice and tears of joy rolled out.

These days I’m out of the greeting cards world. As I started blogging and gained confidence in writing, on every New Year I prepare a short message and send the same to my beloved people; at the same time I post the same here. I feel ok with this culture too. Whatever it is, we share, we express, we love, which is more important. Love remains the same over the years.

The December 31st night outs…

Some of my beautiful memories are still they,
When I had the group-full of friends, seniors
Around me, in the engineering college hostel,
Where we had some real blasts of the New Year.

Those singing competitions, group-games,
Night-outs, extravaganza with slogans, and
The unending memories of all those nights
Make me go nostalgically sick to be frank.

Of course, I’m sick of those memories; but they are still fresh and alive in my heart. Moments and memories like those force me to think as if I’m a student and I’m still in college in my day-dreams. But the above said is applicable only to my B.Tech days. In the M.Tech, of course I had friends, of course I was in IIT Delhi, of course I had experiences of New Year, but honestly they can not move me a bit. May be we lost the interest or we had some other priorities, those two nights of New Years just remained like any other nights.

And now, it is all about the professional world and even highly changed priorities. In fact nothing should be an issue when we want to celebrate; but here the issue is that we do not want to celebrate!! Not intentionally but the mindset has been set the way it is. Many plans go in vain when the wish to implement them is killed.

I’m damn sure that I’m missing many of my friends right now. It is just few hours to go and I’m helpless than just remembering those good golden days and friends. I think I miss the most is the count-down!

Today’s “drugging” New Year…

I’ve just heard the news reader saying that a gram of cocaine is being sold for Rs. 5000. Understand, the mental state of it’s user is unimaginable and we all are contemporaries. Nothing worries them. None of their parents’ wishes bother them. Leave the rest; mentioning about their parents itself irritates such people, what else can be a good reason to be sad than this?

Any way, I just want to leave it to their commonsense. May be, the way the society has been advancing, the way their parents have been educating them will have the real impact on their thinking. They know it better. I hope such things are no more entertained as advancements.

History always remains history;
Future always remains future; but
Present never remains present;
One has to act accordingly.

Hope you will add another December 31st night to your memoirs kitty.

The Art of Gossiping...

Gossips are made. Or may not! Gossips are provoked.

Behind an every gossip there lies a reason, an excuse that actually had provoked the gossiper to start it off. For the same person, it almost takes hell lot of energy only to make an unsuccessful attempt to prevent the gossip from being spread across. The reason or the so called excuse is unknown unless it is spoken out with guts. Otherwise, the gossip does the rounds all that it can make. Surprisingly enough, people make it successful by nurturing with great belief and care.

Believing the gossip is something that is to be thought of. It definitely deserves a moment from every one of us. What happens when a gossip rolls out? What actually provokes people from passing it on and on? What the hell that a human ego can do with the so called gossip?

Well, ego is none other than what a human being is. It is nothing separate from a man’s or woman’s own state of mind and his/her on-the-spot actions according to the situations. In all most all cases the gossips are believed as per the ego state of a person. Basically, the listener’s image off the person who’s against the gossip is or the positive impact of the gossip to satisfy his own ego! If so, the gossip will be conveyed across. If not, the gossip’s road would come to an end then and there itself. Most of the gossips are believed with the advantages they carry along. In case of disadvantageous situations, they are killed, undoubtedly.

Leave the rest to a human’s own belief; but, what about the person who actually initiates the gossip? Out of what such things usually get generated?

I don’t this I have thought enough on this. So let me check it out at my end. I’ll require some more time and experience to come up with the answer for this.

One thing is for sure. As long as you find some real joy in gossiping, gossip. But the very moment you start feeing some sadistic pleasure or unhealthy happiness in gossiping, just stop doing so. Finding our mind’s own state of such madness is very difficult unless we keep ourselves understood of our own rhythm. At the same time, it takes enormous courage to face the gossips against you. Be prepared for the worst.

People often say that girls are best at gossiping. I do not disagree. But on his day, a man is definitely unstoppable from doing so; I stress this.

This is it for now.

Play the game… Take Home #37

You have got to play when you are an integral part of the game. But always remember to play it with what it has to be played, like ball & bat etc; never play with people and their emotions. If not, a win will never remain as a win.

“Very Very Special” Team India…

‘Well done’ will be good enough to encourage the on going Indian cricket team’s tour of South Africa.

Master blaster’s fiftieth century has made the atmosphere so cool even after the innings defeat to the hosts. All credit goes to Sachin. What it feels to be the first man on earth to reach such a great milestone? If I’m not wrong, incredible would not be sufficient enough to describe. It is proud moment to say that he is the man called Sachin Tendulkar from India.

Again, VVS Laxman has played his signature innings with the stylish 96 being the match winning knock for India. Australians knew that earlier, but now, the world knows that he is so special. Only a hard man can drive a hard ship. It is always better for the young cricketers to get associated with such talent and the experience that Indian test team has got.

Any ways, it is a very special win by Team India to kick off the New Year celebrations.

Just Do It... Take home #36

Just Do It; Soon You Will Realize That It Is Doable and At least It Is Not Even Great As Much As It Was Feared Of.

Just Do It.

Love, eternal…

First is first; a tiresome Sunday had come to an end with the fabulous fiftieth test century of Sachin Tendulkar. It was absolutely enjoyable to witness the master’s maestro, South African’s sportive spirit and the stadium full of tri-colour. My hearty congratulations to the Indian cricketer; I’m proud to write this here.

At this moment I can not forget the effect of the single digit temperatures of Pune on me while writing this. Early in the morning as I start going to the office, the two minute walk to the bus stop appears longer than usual and the office bus which comes, stops in between the way on the road, and picks me up, though I’m half way through to the bus stop, appears too good than usual.

Change the mood…

As she walks alongside of him she gets realized.
His soothing affection makes her lose her nerves.
She moves towards him slowly to feel his presence.
Lovely smile of him makes her walk even closer.
As he turns towards her, holds her hand gently,
Tears roll down her reddened yet saddened cheeks,
When she gets realized that he is her imagination.

She recollects,
Their beautiful past spent together.
The wishful dreams they dreamt of.
Those unforgettable memories of him;
And the promises they made for each other.

“Will you marry me?”
Words of him appear repeatedly at her back.
“See you tomorrow”
His last words keep her crying all the way long.

She knows the fact that he will not return.
Some facts can only be known and felt, but
Can not be accepted or believed, though
Some or the other day they have to be, for sure.

She has to accept the fact that he is no more.
Not tough, but the toughest feeling to handle.
Yet she is left with no option than,
Answering every question herself.
Crossing every hurdle herself.
Living every moment herself.

Take Home #35

It is equally important to let others know what you are for them and to know what others are for you. Being true fetches; being fake destroys.

What we choose... Take Home #34

Not what we know but what we choose define us.

When it is the time to say Good Bye…

Doesn’t matter what reasons people have, to seek/undergo the separation, when it is time to say good bye, all the good times spent together dominate the rest.

Students undergo variety of emotions in their college lives. Right from the welcome day to the farewell day they forget everything else and just feel the pinches of student life. Be it the fight for a girl/boy, be it the competition for a rank, be it the fight for the domination, be it sports, and be it off-campus stuff, students work hard to keep their respective groups up. Towards the end, when it comes to the farewell day, many unexpected combination of faces join together to share the agony. All they remember is the best of all moments they all have had and shared.
When a husband and wife are use to have hell lot of fights, it is the most obvious that they undergo many kinds of experiences at the back of their minds. There is a reason for this; their bond is the best rated one in terms of disturbing a person on the eve of a fight. Unavoidable emotional set backs prevent them from remembering their good moments spent together when they exchange some unnecessary words. Nothing can prevent them from seeking the separation. But again, when they have to say good bye to each other, may not be visible, but believe me, they definitely feel the warmth; though that can not reunion them at the very moment!

Relations in professional life are somewhat different from the above mentioned. Though not the way how things happen among people when they work together is different, but basically the way the bonds start itself is very different. Here, bonds develop on many reasons, which are of course worthy as some people say. Some bonds develop on the basis of reporting structure, some develop on the basis of the team requirements, some on the basis of help needed, some on the basis of gossiping, some on the basis of sharing the lunch table, bla…bla…list never completes, and no one can know it enough!! Either way, people do have lots of fights, with bosses, with colleagues etc, and just want to leave the organizations for many reasons; again no one can know them enough. Nevertheless, the D-day comes here as well on the final working day. No surprise if I say the good times dominate the rest, especially when the thank you notes are being delivered.

I do not think I should mention some more situations/relations to support my opening lines of this post. I know everyone can name their own best examples. Also, I do not really have much choice than ending this post with the repetition of same lines. Here I go.

Doesn’t matter what reasons people have, to seek/undergo the separation, when it is time to say good bye, all the good times spent together dominate the rest.

Observe & Take it Easy...

It can be easily understood if a person is listening because he wants to or he has to. At the same time, it is even easier to understand if a person is speaking because he wants to or he has to.

Observing this kind of behavior in others is easy; but stopping ourselves or controlling ourselves from behaving so is a nightmare if I’m not wrong! Many times, in fact, all most every time when we do so, we know that we are speaking or listening to someone as we just have to. Knowing it can not prevent us from doing so. Similarly, the case shall be seen the same with others. Often, people blame others for behaving so, forgetting their own lack of control on themselves at times!

There is no wrong. Many ego states dominate us from within and make us lose control. One shall try his best to reduce the frequency to the best possible level. At the same time such behavior in others must be observed and shall be taken easily.

“No heroes; no zeroes” Raktha Charitra–2.

The first half-an-hour recap of the part-1 didn’t succeed in boring me. The so called violence could not irritate me, at all, to be specific. The kind of hatred that the characters of the movie reiterated in their dialogues was not enough to make me dislike any single bit of the movie. All that I could see and feel was the emotions those were depicted in the most stylish way ever, especially in such a kind of faction based movie. All that made me think was the consciously written screen-play.

Simply, Ram Gopal Varma ji has done it, once again.

The first half-an-hour recap might have bored many. I have only one reason behind saying this and that is the set of comments made by the audience from the back portion of the theater, which I can still hear with my eyes closed. It was enough evident to say that it bored them. Or, might not, as I heard people checking with the theater administration whether they had started playing the first part of the movie instead of second one, by mistake! Any ways, I sincerely appreciate the confidence of the director in his film and the nerves of the audience, that made him do the recap, and of course it was for many other unavoidable reasons as well, which the team unit would have thought much more than anyone, before releasing the movie.

I loved the action scenes of the movie. Surya and Vivek Oberoi were just perfect in speaking with their eyes. It is good that some moral precautions have been taken by the RGV, such that the feelings of anyone would not be hurt unnecessarily.

No heroes; no zeroes. It was all about the way the characters of the movie looked at their lives and understood others, as supporters or hurdles. This concept has been depicted so naturally and very convincingly. In fact this would be the major plus point for the movie to win many hearts. For this, especially, RGV deserves a heartful applause.

Some people may debate on why such movies shall come at all and bring the controversies and emotional imbalances in society. When the film was released and many controversies happened, I myself said in couple of situations, why this guy had such stories as movies!! But, after giving the thought some time, I got realized; Such movies may create a set of controversies; they may not stand resembled the complete streak of incidents inspired those people (based on whose lives such movies are made) to behave in such a way during their times; but they stand tall in narrowing down the gap between the unknown (incidents of contemporary) and the people of the society; hence definitely such movies shall be encouraged by taking them with sportiveness. With all the confidence I can say that the willing directors like RGV shall be encouraged more and more, such that, if not the entire reality can be shown, at least the thought provocation is very helpful for the social lives in the years to come. Many facts and emotions can be understood by the younger generations when such movies are taken seriously and thought of.

On the whole, for me, it was a good experience in and out the theater. It entertained me; it made me think; it made me understand; and I didn’t expect anything else from this movie especially after knowing it’s basis.

Realizations...

The most effective realizations in life happen only after being adversely effected by something. But they are the most interesting shade of life.

Real life lessons which make us
Earn the most valuable experience for
All the years to go in life to
Live better and to conquer some
Invaluable moments of life with full of
Zeal and enthusiasm.
All lessons may not be learnt at one go, but
To be successful in life, one must
Indulge the lessons deep within,
Only to acknowledge the life that
Nothing is as tough as it appears.

Grand Pa & Me...#2

My grand father says that the tastiest food is the least healthy one. Every time I look the menu, I’m use to hear his words at the back of my mind. But I go helpless, at times, when I go to a restaurant, of course not a new reason but to eat more and even more if possible!

It was a summer morning when I was chit chatting with my grand ma at the back part of our house. All of a sudden we heard a loud noise from the front side of our house, as if somebody was screaming to his heart, something like these “Whaaaa….Uhaaaaa...Whaaaaa….”

I rushed quickly at my fastest speed to see what the hell that was. I was absolutely stunned to see my grand pa, who stood on the road, bended himself and was screaming like anything. I saw his hand was half way through his mouth and he was working hard to push something in to his stomach. Finally he made the successful attempt to found the way for that eatable to reach his stomach. He entered the house very proudly after the incident.

After some time, one of my neighbors came to our house and asked my grand pa what he was doing in the morning. He replied that he was advised to eat the Neem tree leaves (Vepa Iguru – we call it in Telugu) as a natural medicine for his diabetes problem. He was literally eating the leaves one by one; as the taste opposed him from eating them, he made those ear-threatening noises to make it happen.

On hearing that, my neighbor could not stop her expressions and laughed for half a minute continuously as we all looked unanswered. After controlling herself she said that the way to eat them was not what he had done. One should take some leaves and they should be grinned nicely in a mixi and then that paste should be swollen directly without having it in much touch with the tongue to avoid the undesired taste of them. Then we all understood why she was unstoppable a minute before!

My grand pa intelligently escaped from the scene with a big “Ohh…”

Take healthy food but only after knowing how to eat it as the healthiest food is never tasty! This was one of the biggest lessons that I learnt during that summer vacation.

Power of the pain...#33

Only a pain can make us forget or ignore the other pain. Pain is powerful. Sometimes, it appears just wonderful, but only after the relief!